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It's a privilege to be out running errands, to feel tired, to have never ending tasks on my to-do list.  Because that means I have errands to run, my body is able to tell me it's tired, I will never run out of things to do.  Life is so fun and wonderful and enjoyable.  There's joy to be felt and challenges to overcome.  Like sleep. Sleep eludes me. That's my challenge. I'll write and push my sleep back.  Why?  Why will I not choose sleep over everything else when it's the most important thing we need? 

Hi, it's me

I find it hard to throw away my post it notes. Those which notes I've taken note of and tasks I've done.  My table is in a perpetual mess. I pack them up and it'll get messy again.  I take up many hobbies, bouldering (which I miss so much), photography, writing, calligraphy. I wish I could split myself into many and do all of them.  I love having new experiences. Tell me something I know nothing about. Tell me about what lights you up and make you happy.  I am emotional. I cry watching romcoms, when I hear a touching story, when I share my story and I feel heard.  I love life and I wish everybody feels the same way I feel.  I am constantly learning, improving and a work in progress. At the same time, I am whole.  Hi, it's me. 

Dealing with anger

Videos I've recently watched while learning about dealing with anger/ rage.  A simple Practice to deal with Anger | Buddhism In English Dr. Gabor Maté on How to Process Anger and Rage | The Tim Ferriss Show Healthy Expressions of Anger | With Dr. Gabor Maté

Are you tired?

Today C shared about how whenever he doesn't feel like doing something that he needs to get done, he asks himself if he's tired. If the answer is yes, he takes a rest and does the task later. Such a simple question but we often don't ask ourselves if we are tired. And give ourselves the rest we deserve.

The roots of the plant are like the heart of our body.

The roots of the plant are like the heart of our body. If you are not feeling good inside, your outside won't look good too.  Wise words from C today.  How do you pot a plant:  First cut up a mesh big enough to cover the bottom of the pot.  Put clay balls or coconut beat for edibles. Mix soil with perlite, lava rock pebbles until they are not so wet to the touch. When you clump it hard in your hands and throw it, it should be able to break apart easily.  Put the mixed soil into the pot. Fill it up until the height you want your plant to be.  Put your plant in and fill up your pot with more of the mixed soil. Put lava rocks on the top layer so that bacteria will not come out of the soil.  Do a water test by pouring water into the pot.  If water flows out quickly, the soil is loose and the roots of the plant will have plenty of space to grow. --- Now to getting a pot and a plant to start my project.  Who's a gardener here? Are my instructions c...

How I live my life

I wake up, do my best for the day. If it's a day I can only give my 47%, I push and try to give my fullest 47%. I go to bed happy. Wake up and repeat.  There are days I am not satisfied with myself. I think many will go to bed unhappy and wake up unhappy. So be it isn't it?  Every time I wake up, I know it's a new day. A chance to make it a great day.  I honestly don't know where I'm going with this. It's late and I want to post something.  I guess it's a 23% for writing today. 

We are not worthy

We are not worthy of how our bodies treat us. Yesterday I had body aches, felt a fever coming, felt really sick, spammed ginger honey, ninjiomppg, septilin so that I can well and about today. I did all that and still pushed myself to sleep past 1 because I had loads to do before bed. ;/ Today, I'm feeling a bit unwell only at 11.45pm and I just remembered what I've put my body through. I probably haven't recovered fully but I've pushed my body so hard by getting up early, prepping for class, having class, heading out, coming home, attempting to cook my sago balls fully for green bean soup tomorrow. And doom scrolling. :/ I crashed when I came home from the expo. And I wondered why I was so tired.  We truly don't know what's good until it's gone. Why are humans like that? Only when we get injured do we appreciate walking, jogging, hiking freely. Yep me, a few years ago where I had a hairline fracture in my foot.  Only when someone passes away do we wish we di...

6 months

Yesterday after having written my blogpost, I realised while adding the labels that I've mentioned Daniel's book -  When before. I had to read what I wrote. I navigated to that entry and found out my website has been offline since my credit card expired. ;/ Why. has. no. one. told. me. *cries I spent the last hour trying to put my website back on the web.  I remembered a point in time I felt naked putting my words for everyone to read.  And I stopped writing. But now, I'm feeling weird, a bit sad to be honest.  Right when I'm starting my writing habit again, I hit a wall.  I think yesterday was a good post. But nobody can tell me now. People say you learn most when you're deep in the trenches. I have to learn fast and troubleshoot to get my website on again.  Makes me shift my perspective a little bit. What creative endeavours do I want to start? Do I want to sell something? I should just go ahead and launch and learn along the way.  No one's going to ...

Building a habit

If you noticed, my first post back was second June, I've also started my Homework for Life and Daily Reflection on the first of June. As second June is a Monday and the start of the week for most people, it makes it ideal to start a habit.  Daniel H. Pink in his book When: The Scientific Secrets of Perfect Timing talks about finding the perfect time to do anything, like starting a habit. Knowing the science to make it easier, to increase your chances of succeeding. The first day of the week, month or year are good times.  It was my favourite book. I gave it away to a stranger for a book exchange project.  Since the start of the month, other habits I'm building are meditating daily using the daily meditation tracks provided by Insight Timer and checking in daily on a self-care app called Finch. It's been a lot of fun using these two apps to help me build habits I want to keep.  If you do download them, send me a message so we can keep each other accountable. Studies h...

Buy your insurance

Someone shared this perspective with me today. An elderly lady over 70 plus has to do an urgent surgery. She had to pay close to 40k for surgery at a private hospital. Insurance premiums for older folks are more expensive, they may cost close to 10k per year for private hospitals.  Even if you pay close to 10k per year, it's still worth it as you get a sense of confidence and security from knowing your loved ones will get to see the doctor as quickly as possible and be given the best treatment possible.  --- It got me thinking. Best to take care of yourself right now. Wherever you are, however you are. So you do not need to be in the hospital taking the time of someone else who may need the doctor's time more. 

Do things daily

Found this when I opened up Notion.  George Mack says, If you do a task daily rather than weekly, you achieve 7 years of output in 1 year. If you apply a 1% compound interest rate each time, you achieve 54 years of output in 1 year. So I'm back here. And I find that I need to make this a habit. Clock the bad writing. Write to put thoughts on page, be better at writing, be a writer, write everyday.  So I'm back. And I hope everyday. Say hi if you're here.  Have a beautiful day you lovely human.