Brienne writes

I find it hard to throw away my post it notes. Those which notes I've taken note of and tasks I've done.  My table is in a perpetual mess. I pack them up and it'll get messy again.  I take up many hobbies, bouldering (which I miss so much), photography, writing, calligraphy. I wish I could split myself into many and do all of them.  I love having new experiences. Tell me something I know nothing about. Tell me about what lights you up and make you happy.  I am emotional. I cry watching romcoms, when I hear a touching story, when I share my story and I feel heard.  I love life and I wish everybody feels the same way I feel.  I am constantly learning, improving and a work in progress. At the same time, I am whole.  Hi, it's me. 

Videos I've recently watched while learning about dealing with anger/ rage.  A simple Practice to deal with Anger | Buddhism In English Dr. Gabor Maté on How to Process Anger and Rage | The Tim Ferriss Show Healthy Expressions of Anger | With Dr. Gabor Maté

Today C shared about how whenever he doesn't feel like doing something that he needs to get done, he asks himself if he's tired. If the answer is yes, he takes a rest and does the task later. Such a simple question but we often don't ask ourselves if we are tired. And give ourselves the rest we deserve.

The roots of the plant are like the heart of our body. If you are not feeling good inside, your outside won't look good too.  Wise words from C today.  How do you pot a plant:  First cut up a mesh big enough to cover the bottom of the pot.  Put clay balls or coconut beat for edibles. Mix soil with perlite, lava rock pebbles until they are not so wet to the touch. When you clump it hard in your hands and throw it, it should be able to break apart easily.  Put the mixed soil into the pot. Fill it up until the height you want your plant to be.  Put your plant in and fill up your pot with more of the mixed soil. Put lava rocks on the top layer so that bacteria will not come out of the soil.  Do a water test by pouring water into the pot.  If water flows out quickly, the soil is loose and the roots of the plant will have plenty of space to grow. --- Now to getting a pot and a plant to start my project.  Who's a gardener here? Are my instructions c...

I wake up, do my best for the day. If it's a day I can only give my 47%, I push and try to give my fullest 47%. I go to bed happy. Wake up and repeat.  There are days I am not satisfied with myself. I think many will go to bed unhappy and wake up unhappy. So be it isn't it?  Every time I wake up, I know it's a new day. A chance to make it a great day.  I honestly don't know where I'm going with this. It's late and I want to post something.  I guess it's a 23% for writing today. 

We are not worthy of how our bodies treat us. Yesterday I had body aches, felt a fever coming, felt really sick, spammed ginger honey, ninjiomppg, septilin so that I can well and about today. I did all that and still pushed myself to sleep past 1 because I had loads to do before bed. ;/ Today, I'm feeling a bit unwell only at 11.45pm and I just remembered what I've put my body through. I probably haven't recovered fully but I've pushed my body so hard by getting up early, prepping for class, having class, heading out, coming home, attempting to cook my sago balls fully for green bean soup tomorrow. And doom scrolling. :/ I crashed when I came home from the expo. And I wondered why I was so tired.  We truly don't know what's good until it's gone. Why are humans like that? Only when we get injured do we appreciate walking, jogging, hiking freely. Yep me, a few years ago where I had a hairline fracture in my foot.  Only when someone passes away do we wish we di...