What are you willing to give to get it?

You say you want things but how much do you want it?

Do you really want it enough to put in the work?

I remember wanting a degree but not wanting to put in the work.

I wanted it to magically fall into my lap with hard work, but not that much hard work iykwim.

I complained to my parents whenever I had assignment due dates on festivities. I remember feeling fomo one time and tried to have the best of both worlds by having a glass of wine in one hand and my psychology textbook in another. Obviously, you know what happened.

I'll miss deadlines or be so overwhelmed with the assignments and whine to Mom. 

"Who asked you to get the degree?" she'll ask. 

"Who's forcing you to do it?" 

"No one. No one is forcing me.. But it's hard. I can't do it."

Eventually, it came to a point where I either gave up or keep going.

Did I want the degree? Yes. 

If I gave up now, will I want to pursue the degree in the future? 

Yes I would. So I pulled up my big girl panties and finished it. 

Now I want things. A career in copywriting, maybe coaching too. Time for Twitter and building my personal brand. Reading a book a month, writing about what I've learnt and sharing them with people on my blog. 

But. I'm not doing anything.

Take today for example. I had the whole of today. But I woke up late. Danced around as I cleaned the room and pack up my space. Made breakfast of 2 eggs and finished listening to the podcast episode with Aubrey Marcus. (Go give it a listen! I learnt loads from this one)

And then I had to spend time with the little one because Sundays are family days. 

Play time with her is not wasted time. 

She went home after dinner. 

I could've spent the time after dinner working on my stuff but I didn't. 

So what do you really want?

What are you willing to give to get it?